WOW!!! they are just so cool!! they made playing the piano into a battle..how smart!



The piano duet is also damn cool!






Jay Chou - Secret - (Time Travel Theme)




不能说的秘密 - Secret i think this slow version sounds nicer!~


不能說的祕密 - Secret(加長快版 fast version also not bad!

ytd saw kengling online and i went to knock on her msn! we chat awhile and i really missed her a lot we talk about a lot but mostly was me talking crap and making her laugh and that is all that i can do for her but i was very happy ...I'ts been more then a year since we last met and i really miss her! i miss disturbing her a lot in fact she is the only ppl that i DO TEASE in sec 5A but girl don get it wrong it's cause i really like you a lot you are 1 of my most baobei friend and no matter how long we never chat i will never run out of things to chat with you!=)
current mood: HAPPY!

i today morning also chatted with junjun on the phone..hmm..girl i will alway cheer you on! and you are the only one friend that i pour my all out to..i never really let my friends know me and understand all my feelings but i told you all and only you know!
you say you saw my past post and you don't know what to say to me..at that moment i felt really touch..thanks for caring for me!
And i wanna give you confidences too! so I'm gonna praise you!
LISTEN well jiang zijun!
you are the most mature young lady that i know, with your kind heart, forever forgiving mindset & cheerful smile you always give the people around energy and strength you are really so much more a capable HUMAN BEING then you think you are..
words cannot describe how wonder you are!
and so at here i will make the first move and tell you i truly truly treat you and jiajia as my FRIENDS!
not normal friends but friends with high level of importance to me!
jiayou! jiayou! jiayou!
LET WORK HARD TGT GIRLS ! FIGHTtoe OH!
current mood: Recharged!

OMG!~ season 3

Finally blog is ok now...i waited for like a million years can!
Anyway yesterday meet up with my Darlings again..'supper HAPPY!~'
i simply can't find any other 2 people that love my idea of having a lappy party better!
we literally spend our whole day using our lappy together! and i can't get more of it!
and my realplayer is finally ok now! HEY pees if you wanna download realplayer better don use the SP version go find the old version that 1 is much better!
Meet up at 1:30 pm went all the way up to nebo to have lunch then it's all the way down to MOF to slack cause that is the only place i know that have loads of plugs for us to use..hehe!~

and now i have photoshop already but it's a bit difficult to self learn! hais..NVRM i'm still SUPER happy i got it thanks JUnJUn!
Before we even realise it was already 9.30pm and we all parted and headed home!
CAN't wait till our nxt lappy party again!

Labels: MOOD: HAPPY

all i wanted was just to sit down and talk..
what i wanted was to understand each and every1's feeling
and know how my dear friends are doing
i love every1 that's why i used to cared..
i was vex and need to tell somebody but the rely i got was: "don you think, you think too much? later if we don meet up you will say we don meet!" [i lost faith in believing anymore]

seriously i ask myself what was friends for just to hang out and have fun?

wasn't it suppose to be sharing tears and laughter together?

wasn't it suppose to be caring for each other feelings? finding out if the other party is doing well?

be it just hanging out for 1 hour talking and it already beats having fun the whole night!
SORRY but i am unable to have fun when i don understands the other person anymore!
i cannot smile so i rather be stuck with lappy and PC at home!


i couldn't care less anymore..
i don wanna be all mess up like this anymore!
i don wanna be feeling this alone anymore..i'm gonna throw this away..
Noelle let's just focus on what makes you smile..
now my lappy and my PC are both my number 1 best friends!

but i am useless and weak i cannot just don't care!!
i cannot i cannot i cannot do it!

but isn't there a saying :
"there is no family that will always stick together, those that are leaving and those that are sending them away have to be strong!"

i will rmb the past and keep it safe away is what i can do

although i cannot stop that feeling of despair but i will get strong i need to get stronger to face life so i will fight and i will keep fighting this feeling..






PS: can't wait for Monday to come i wanna see junjun and jiajia!^^...
......i am useless and weak

Labels: when i close my eyes i can see the past it make me sad that we are all apart all the small little things we did for each others was so touching then...but maybe it had stop at then..

sobs man Park JaeBeom already left 2pm and korea..
he already took the plane to US today..how sad all becos of he past comment about he made about him hating Korea..but they didn't got the full story and wanted him to leave 2pm even though he apologise and said endless time of sorry to the public of Korea...

but after he left Korea this was found

[After brewing up criticism of speaking ill of Korea, messages filled with love for Korea were found late from leader Jaebum who willingly left 2PM, and fans are feeling regret.

In each fan site, and through internet notice boards Jaebum’s message in 2006 to his friends in America through his myspace were "I want to stay in Korea 1 more year” “Not as a JYP(trainee) but I want to spend it as a Korean” and others saying that Korea was his ‘motherland’ and words saying how life in Korea was good were left.

It’s regretful that Jaebum is suddenly withdrawing within a mere 4 days of Jaebum’s ‘Hate Korea’ picture captures that were revealed on the 5th.

On top of that, when Jaebum visited Seattle, USA from late July to early August for vacation, in an interview at a Christian church, he spoke well about his life in Korea, making this news even more regrettable.

Officials in the industry are also expressing their regret over Jaebum’s withdrawal. One music program official said “The regret of the withdrawal is as big as how 2PM’s leader held together the center”. Another program official said that “With leader Jaebum’s withdrawal from 2PM, even if 2PM continues their activities with 6 members, it will never be the same”.]


but his alr gone...sad...sobbs

i really feel sad for him even thought i just found out of him this person just today..
how sad CAN!
all his effort and all his time training are wasted.
i can understand why he wrote those stuff 4 years ago..he was just a student then..
and as youngster we tend to easily express our feelings out no matter is sad, anger, hate or love to let others know how we feel...
is not easy being all alone in a foreign country everything will feel so alien to you too!! and he didn't know korean then can!
he was all alone and lonely with no support!
really feel sad for him to be stuck in this kind of situation..sobbs

so how i suddenly understand
not hoping means no disappointment
not look back into the past means no missing
not caring means no bother
maybe every1 should just live life looking only at the future and moving ahead with full speed....
maybe all this will adds up to happiness and bring a smile to our faces

some how i feel lost and lonely now..i don have friends i don have dreams i don have nothing...why did life turn out like this no one understands, i don understand and it is really god damn scary to feel this way everything is so unknow and i'm lost i just wanna run away
seeing my brother now i envy him
even though he is in army now at least his life feel real and he knows that what he needs to do...
what am i to do?what am i to do?what am i to do?what am i to do?
i need an answer in the inside i'm running wild!!!!
pls show me!!! pls!!! even the first step is good enough
at least i'll know which path to go
i'm scare i'm really scare..why is this so hard what will to future be?
I'M SO SCARE & NOW I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS FAKE..
I HAVE NOTHING..I HAVE NOTHING...I DON LIKE THIS..
AND NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW THIS FEELS I DONNO WHO TO TURN but i need help


"Be thankful for what have happened because it will be a part of your life experience. And even though whatever that had happened cannot be altered, everything will turn out fine."
a line from junjun to amanda..somehow it gives me strength..

Today was suppose to go sch to meet wanzi for gym but i over slept (wanzi seem unhappy) SORRY..
Well its been 4 days since sch ended but I miss: Jun, Jiajia , Amanda , joanne & jinxuan already!!! will sure to plan a date for all of us to meet up kayyx girls...
anyway i screw up my exams can! really hope i can pass through i really don wanna retake any module..PLEASE LET ME PASS!!!!!!

Life everyday now is like this:

"As I go and break the wall to freedom
I survive every day with a cloudy mind
As I go on this pacing heart gives up

It can't be helped now,
I still have a lot of things to do,
In one day I only get 4 hours of sleep(during sch days)
Everyday my physical strength gets poured into it

To become an adult, what does that mean?
what will we look like, will our personality change?
What kind of face will we have?
Are we gonna be in contact when we are adults?

Everyday is just a repetition.
There is not a place to go or hide,
Everyday is the same with no place for our feelings to go, we just have to sallow it back down.
This feeling goes over and over, it gets me dizzy

spinning around & around hectically,
and we're still swimming through each day

some people say we think too much but are we suppose to not think at all?
is this the correct thing to do?
Am i suppose to accept things as it comes by?
Am i not to change the things going around me?
Am i not to change ME! ?
Am i not to do something?
I wander through every day (wander around with a blank head)

All i know is everyday i feel very lost inside...

some days i feel nothing can be trusted
and some days i feel like living with hope in life
I feel like locking myself up but yet I'm afraid we will all lost contact
but sometime it feels like we're wasting our time..
everything is so confusing, i feel so scare and insecure..
and some days i don wanna care
yet some times i care a lot about every single thing(too much)
Is this what growing up is about?
now the future just seem like a blur!"

Labels: the process of growing up suck